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F***king Birth Control Pills

Need I say more?  I think they're having a reverse effect on Me.  For about 2 months Ive been taking them.  Theyre supposed to kill Your sexual desire and stop ovulation.  Well, not for this cat.  It feels like its doing the total opposite, which makes Me question; "What does God want Me to do about it?" **throws hands up in the air**  Personally, I feel dammed if I do, dammed if I don't.   Here in Heaven and on Earth.  That's about the size of it.  So, in that, I decided to make a very intense, heartfelt prayer and somewhat of a manifestation; ah heck no I didnt, I made a very specific manifestation.  And since I do 1000% believe in Gods' Holy power and whatever I ask in faith, NOT wavering, coming to the throne of grace in time of need, in Jesus' name and HE will do it.  I went there.  More to come....   Peace out and tacos! Me. 
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A Beautiful Relationship...Why screw it up?

Okay, I guess I'm a roll...  I have a lot to say.  It seems that the moment I've finished a post whether here or on My business social media profiles, I have more to say or more thoughts that I believe should be said.    That being said..  Let Me get something said and potentially straight with ye few but many who will read this.   I thought after two horrible marriages, that I wasn't cut out for being happy.  I wasn't even 30 when these two relationships ended and somehow I ended up being the bad guy.  I was so used to living My life the way I chose to, and the hell with Me EVER conforming to being the submissive Woman by being the Housewife, barefoot with 10 kids.  I wanted to rock out, make music, see and do things, make My own way. Even with barely making music or playing out live at a young age.  I didn't want to end up like what every Woman that I saw around Me in My life.  So I made darn sure that I didn't, even when I d...
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Feeling like a kid, 4th pregnancy and miscarriage..

Hey again;  Wow, well, I'd never thought I would blog about My life in this way, so fair warning, I may jump around a bit from backwards in My life to now on this re-living puberty thing.   So, no, its not what I signed up for.  Trying to describe living with this "condition" and feeling like I did at 10-11 years old, emotionally and sometimes mentally, in all honesty, sucks!   When this renewal of a fresh and constantly producing a baby dairy farm, and periods of what Young Girls experience first happened to Me.  I honestly thought that I finally had the chance to experience what it would be like having My own child/children and well, I was like "wow!".   So even though Gary wasn't keen about having more children, when this first happened to Me, He was very supportive, and we talked about it and He said; "Okay lets see what happens".  Then after a long engagement, which already felt like marriage anyway, we marry in 2015.  We already knew h...
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What condition My condition was in..

Well hello everyone.  I know, the title huh? Well, I'd figured why not? I like the song from The First Edition(Kenny Rogers first band that I knew of as a child) Welcome few but many.  I'm not sure how or where to begin.  But after a long, hard thought about it, and prayers in the sense of My subconscious self;  I've finally decided to get off My duff and start writing about My journey of sorts.  Now, before I go on;  My goal and My hope is that, if there is someone out there who is or is about to go through what I've been through and will continue to go through until who knows when; that they get some comfort, relief and hopefully a blessing from it.     Five years ago, I never thought I would ever experience something like this.  And as a Woman, this whole experience has My whole life really screwy.  All I can do is deal with it day by day, sometimes minute or second to second.  Everyone knows that all of us Ladies are...
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